Thursday 31 October 2013

Throwing caution to the wind


This week one of my closet friends told me she was pregnant. It's funny how one piece of good news can raise you out of your slump!

Wednesday 30 October 2013

Looking for a lift


One of the things I’m trying to be very conscious of as I make my way through the depression journey, is making sure I speak to people about how I’m feeling. The challenge is finding those who are strong enough to lift me and listen with open ears. 

Tuesday 29 October 2013

5am tears



Ahh depression – there’s never a dull moment. From the highs of reaching third trimester yesterday, to waking up in tears at 5am this morning. You just never know when the joy is going to hit you.

Monday 28 October 2013

Third Trimester - A marvelous Monday!

Today represents two major milestones - I am officially in my 3rd trimester and Sticky is now deemed "viable." It's a Marvelous Monday indeed.

Friday 25 October 2013

Wednesday 23 October 2013

Finding the peaceful path


Yesterday, a friend messaged me on Facebook telling me about the craziness that was happening in her life at the moment. She said “I’m just trying to find a peaceful path through it.” Those words really resonated with me. At the end of the day, that’s all any of us can do.

Tuesday 22 October 2013

Obstacles to being happy




Yesterday I was talking about the obstacles I face to feeling happy – and they’re rather large as I haven’t been able to shake it. The biggest is how do you reconcile the fact that as one of your most beloved people in the world enters the world, another will leave it?

Monday 21 October 2013

Deciphering depression Part 2 - It's ok to be happy and excited




One of the questions you’re constantly asked through pregnancy is “Is this your first baby?” I always say yes but everytime I do, I feel it chip away a little at my soul because of course, it isn’t. The sad thing is, I didn’t realise the impact this was having on me until my good friend pre-natal depression decided to visit.

Friday 18 October 2013

Fabulous Friday

Happy Fabulous Friday all. What's fabulous about today is what's meant to be one of the simplest and purest things in the world - a woman I know had a baby!

Wednesday 16 October 2013

National Pregnancy Loss Remembrance Day


Yesterday was National Pregnancy Loss Remembrance Day. I only realised this when I checked Facebook last night and saw all the beautiful posts from my friends who were remembering their lost babies. I posted this photo in tribute to my own lost babies.

Tuesday 15 October 2013

We have a name!



So, it’s official – Sticky has a name. Only a first name at this point but I guess that’s the most important one.

Monday 14 October 2013

The death of the baby shower




25 weeks – Sticky now weighs about 700 grams and is about 35 centimetres long. I can’t believe that something that long is growing inside of me. But, the strangest thought is she could easily grow another 15 to 20 cms before she pops out!

Friday 11 October 2013

Fabulous Friday


Today I celebrate the fabulousness of friendship. I’ve been feeling disconnected from my friends over the past few weeks and this week they reminded me of how valued and treasured they are.

Thursday 10 October 2013

Pre-natal depression - the gift that keeps on taking


Yesterday, I commented on how in my previous life I was a physically stable person. I was an emotionally stable person too. I am no longer.

Wednesday 9 October 2013

Deciphering depression

One of the most frustrating things about battling depression is how it turns your brain into total a mess. I liken it to the moment you pull out the Xmas tree lights, ready to decorate the tree, only to find they are a jumbled mess that you have to painstakingly untangle.

Tuesday 8 October 2013

24 weeks and counting!


So I am now 24 weeks. As you can see, I’m still not showing a huge amount but we’re slowly but surely getting there. Clearly, there is a lot of room to grow!

Sunday 6 October 2013

Happy Birthday Peanut

Today is Peanut's 1st birthday. That's how I choose to remember it. My options are clear - either remember today as a day of loss or a day of birth. I choose the later.

Friday 4 October 2013

Fabulous Friday



Happy Fabulous Friday all! It's been a day of highs and lows but a strangely fabulous one overall!

Thursday 3 October 2013

Pregnancy frustrations


As this pregnancy progresses, there are a few things I’m really starting to get over. They are the frustrations that can add seconds, which add up to minutes, which add up to hours of your life over your 40 week confinement. Then, there are just the stupid things people say that make you want to punch them in the face. Here are my gripes.

Wednesday 2 October 2013

Wriggly baby


Now that Sticky’s movement has become more consistent, I’m starting to notice she has a routine. It’s quite funny as I start to note the different locations she likes and things that impact her. She’s already starting to show her personality!

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